WICKEDLY BEAUTIFUL

as hard as it is to look like me back in malaysia, it's even harder to look like me when i'm in d*bai. being here really damages my self-esteem and my self-confidence (when it comes to looks). why so? allow me to paint a better picture of the people here:

1. many of the local guys here are yummy looking (contrary to my initial impression of them) and many of them would wear these if-you-wear-it-in-malaysia-it-definitely-means-you-are-a-plu shirts that make them even yummier (strangely enough, contrary to their stereotyped association with laziness, most of them look like they spend some considerable hours in the gym)

2. some of the trolley pushers at carrefour and office cleaners and pizza delivery boys can pass off as movie stars back in malaysia (or at least a pan-asian tv host on astro). actually, it got me thinking - if they only knew how sellable their looks are in malaysia, they should just quit their low-paying job and become a talent for ads or commercials in malaysia. ok, so maybe they don't have the upbringing to pull that off. but i can help them with that - no problem. they can stay with me and i'll train them (i am even willing to do more than that actually... ;P)

3. the guys who work in zara look like models who just got off from the runaway in their suits.

4. the (female) perfume promoters in the shopping malls look as good (if not better) as the model in the perfume ad.

5. if you watch the local entertainment shows on tv, you'd notice that most of the audience look as good as the singers on stage. even the back-up dancers look as good as the singer himself/ herself (this is sooo different from how things are in malaysia)

everytime i look these pretty creatures, i would say to myself, "at least i have the brain". but it's just a defence mechanism. cos if i really have THE brain, it shouldn't even be thinking about something this shallow, right? or should i?

i live in a land where 'supermodels' bump trolleys with me at carrefour ( i keep mentioning carrefour cause it's the only hypermarket around. and that's where i always do my grocery shopping). and naturally, because i don't look like one, i'm always careful when i push my trolley... eheh