WHAT COULD GO WRONG? EVERYTHING, APPARENTLY

ok, i'm starting to get stressed out here. you know how before you make a decision you think about the 'what could go wrong's if you actaully go throught with the decision? well, in my case my 'what could go wrongs' have been slowly creeping out one by one.

WCGW NO. 1 - the job would suck
this is fast becoming a fact. i'm getting crazy deadlines, which in turn requires me to work extremely long hours. but i don't want to talk about work so much. i know that you have sucky jobs in malaysia too... (i've been in a few)

WCGW NO. 2 - my roomate would be an a**hole
oh gawd!!!!! i know the last time i wrote about him it sounded like he's an ok guy. but over the past 2 weeks that i've sharing a roof with him, he has managed to drive me crazy a a few times (oh yeah - i think i should forewarn that the next few entries would contain some serious roomate-bashing sentiment)

i'm not saying that i'm a great roomate myself. i mean, i sing at home. i sing at home LOUDLY. and i do this all the time. i know that some people may find this annoying (although i have yet to find someone who told me that they find my singing annoying.. eheh). but at least i'm considerate. i am sensitive towards my roomate's feelings. i would try to make things as fair as possible - equally share the chores, equally share the space. i guess being in a family that practices favouritsm, equality is really a virtue that you value.

but this guy is like the total opposite of that. he's an opportunist. if he can get away with not doing something, rest assured he will not do it. and because i'm the kind who doesn't really confront people until i know them well enough, he's getting away with it. i'm still being diplomatic at the moment but i think i will reach my limit soon.

i don't even know how to start describing the annoying thing that he does. first of all, he lacks social conscience a.k.a. takde adab. when you are eating something, it is only polite for you to offer yr food to the people around you. in the apartment, that person would be me. but he never does. but when it's your food, he would shamelessly ask for some. what the @#*&!!!

the first few days in the apartment, i took the garbage out out. come the fourth time, i purposely waited to see whether he would throw it out. and to my surprise, he actually commented 'eh sampah ni dah nak kena buang ni...' the nervvvveeee!!!! at that point, i actually told him 'why don't we take turns to take out the garbage? and you start first' lucky for him, he said ok.

we were in a meeting room in the office. there were 3 of us in the room. we were about to leave the office. he was sitting next to the remote controller. he left without switching of the aircond. my other colleague asked - 'eh why didn't u switch off the aircond?' he replied - 'do i look like the aircond guy?' . and i replied - 'does ANYONE here look like an aircond off guy?' (actually he could pass for one)

is it possible for someone to be self-centred but at the same time be so dependent on other people. apparently he is. i was wishing that my roomate would be someone who's a master at diy and stuff. but if i compare myself to him, I AM the diy master. this guy needs help measuring his window panes to buy his curtains!!!

everytime i think about having to stay with him for the next two years, i would cringe.

WCGW NO. 3 - i would balloon up again
i have managed to lose some weight in 2005. but looking at how things are going, i think i could very well be back to my original weight by the end of this year. the way i function is that when i'm stress at work, i eat. when i need to work long hours, i snack while working. and i don't snasck on apples and oranges (cos seriously it's not snacking if you are eating healthy food) i snack on chocolate bars, cookies and nuts (and it's just a coincidence that cashew nuts are so cheap here)

when i got the offer to come here, i couldn't help but think - there must be a catch. i mean,
i don't know what have i done to receive such rezeki. maybe it's not a blessing - it's punishment
things will go very bad there because it's god's way of punishing me of the things i've done last year. could this be true? i think so.

i'm just going to end this entry with one big SIGHHHHH...