LESSON LEARNED

writing about matters of the heart is never easy. that is why i have been avoiding it so far. maybe i felt that it was a bit too personal. maybe it's because i'm afraid that if things don't go well in the relationship, it would be hard to forget about it as there would always be the entry to remind me of it. but this time, i actually feel that i need to make an entry on this. so that i can remind myself. and learn from the whole thing that happened. so this time, i'm making an exception.

cinta tegarkan hatiku
tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
naluriku berkata
tak ingin terulang lagi
kehilangan cinta hati
bagai raga tak bernyawa

aku junjung petuamu
cintai dia yang mencintaiku
hati yang dulu belayar
kini telah menepi
bukankah hidup kita
akhirnya harus bahagia

'cinta' by krisdayantiandmellygoeslaw

i used to hate this song (basically because i am not a fan of ms coleslaw there. she's just too weird for me). but i could never forget one line of the lyrics since the first time i heard the song:

cintai dia yang yang mencintaiku

this particular line had stayed in my mind like a bad jingle. maybe because i totally did not agree with it. with the whole concept. love someone just because that person loves you? what about what YOU want?

but something happened to me recently that finally made me understand what it means. it's just a pity that it took a heartbreak for me to understand it.

well such is life.

should really listen more to what the great singers are saying from now on. krisdayantiandmelly have said it, mishaomarandjaclyn have said it (and kicked some ass while saying it). even farhanandvelvet have said it. i should have listened. could have spared me some heartache..

cinta
biar saja ada
yang terjadi biar saja terjadi
bagaimanapun hidup
memang hanya cerita
cerita tentang meninggalkan dengan ditinggalkan
cinta…..

how true