AS IT APPROACHES..

age is nothing but a number, they say. but this particular number can sometimes stir all sorts of emotions in people. especially when the number is about to increase by another notch. And that’s what’s happening to me now. my emotions are rather stirred at the moment.

27. twenty-seven, dua puluh tujuh. saba’atun wa’ashrun (i had to google for this. i only know how to count until ten in arabic..hehe). vingt-sept. no matter how i say it, it just sounds the same. it sounds OLD (eheh).

i remember when i was 20, i had a premature mid-life crisis. i was moving away from being a teenager and i was already reaching the age of adulthood. when i read the newspaper, instead of writing “seorang remaja berumur 20 tahun”, they wrote “seorang lelaki berumur 20 tahun”. i got frightened. i wasn’t ready to be an adult. it became a big matter of concern for a while. But i knew why i was feeling that way. there were so many things that other 20 year olds have done which i had not done at the time. things that only teenagers can do. so, it felt like time was running out for me.

the exact same feeling has surfaced once again now. although most people would consider 30 as a significant milestone and would start freaking out at 29, as someone who is very forward thinking with a very good foresight, i’ve decided to freak out now (hahaha). at 27, there are some things that i have yet to do or experience. like bungee jumping in new zealand (yeah, right) or singing at the royal albert hall (sitti did it at 25 ok? hehehe ). no la, i’m talking about things in the relationship department (which you guys don’t want to hear again) and some other things. plus, i don't really act like a 26-year old half of the time. (i mean, how many people my age would buy the high school musical dvd and watch it for 3 nights in a row the first time he bought it?). how can i be 27?

and what's more - this time, my birthday will be on the first day of ramadhan. i can't even remember the last time i celebrated my birthday during ramadhan (arithmetically, it would have been when i was 1 or 2 year old, i think). so i'm a bit clueless as to how does one celebrate his birthday in the month of ramadhan. how does one do it? (btw, i just received a mailer from red box about a 'ramadhan promotion'. buffet plus 3 hours of 'room usage'. i got confused a little bit. what would the rooms be used for? semayang terawih ke? hehehe). perhaps i can do a double celebrations thingy. but these two occasions are usually celebrated rather differently, so how shall i fuse them together? but whatever it is, i hope that my first day of ramadhan will be better than last year's .. and my birthday.. will not be so bad.

anyway, to everyone, have a blessed ramadhan, ok? cheers!