REUNITING

gosh. so many things to write about. so many things to do.

i'm currently in my office. watching/listening to the live streaming of ajl. since jinb*ra is performing right now, i thought i'd write something. seriously - f*rhana gadis what? haiyoo. i rest my case.

life has been so busy the past few weeks. except for my job. and thank god for that. and there's a reason why things have been so hectic:

i'm going back this thursday (today)! :D

you guys may know what's the ultimate reason for me going back. yes - it's him. but i'm trying to find as many other reasons as possible to why i'm going back. just to make me feel less guilty. because taking an 8-hour flight just to see my partner sounds like i'm paris hilton (although miss hilton would be taking a private jet whereas i'll be stuck with cramped legs in economy). so i managed to find the perfect time tp go back which would provide me with strong enough reasons that would satisfy my conscience (and reasons that couls justify me going back to my family and friends)- it's my high school reunion.

understandably, life is a little bit chaotic with me at the moment. since like everyone else i'm struggling to lose like a gazillion kilos before the reunion. but unlike other people (who are exaggerating), i REALLY need to lose a gazillion kilos. so i've been going to the gym every spare time that i can. but i'm not seeing the results. i only have 5 days left. emm how long does it take to recover from a liposuction surgery?

apart from the pressure to look my best, i've also decided to add to the stress level by agreeing to participate in the idol competition during the reunion. ha.. gila kan? i really didnt know why i volunteered.. but i just thought that if im gonna fly a few thousand miles just for the reunion, i better make my presence felt. eheh. and plus, you guys know how much i enjoy singing. so apart from the pressure to lose weight, now i have the pressure of training my vocal chords, selecting a song AND finding an outfit. serves me right. wish me luck in this one ok?

i really don't know what's going to happen at the reunion. will i be bombarded with questions of "bila nak kawin?" or "how long do you plan to stay there?" or "ada keje kosong untuk i tak?" (well i can bet you i'm gonna get a load of the third question). a friend who is a member of the reunion committee sent me an email a week ago, asking me to speak at a "career talk" session with the current student (LUCKILY, i am not going to be able to make it since i'm arriving late on that day). anyway, he did say that he can't wait to see me because he said "(another friend) ckp ko dah hebat sekarang". aiyoh. expectation expectation.

oh yes, apart from the reunion, i also have a good friend's wedding to attend. and get this, she doesn't even know that i'm going to be at her wedding! (not because she didn't invite me, but i told her that i wont be going back to kl until may). nice surprise eh? god i'm such a good friend kan? kan? kan? hehehe..

but ultimately, i'm back because of him. i have not been doing very well being away from him. i have had some crazy moments (more than i expected). so i really need to see him again soon. and i need to talk to him. BOTH of us need to talk and see what we need to do to make things work. this is very important because after this trip, i will only return to kl again in june. that's like 4 months away! i could barely survive the past one month, let alone 4 months. but at this point, i'm still determined to make this work. i just hope that he is as determined as i am...