THE WEEKEND THAT WAS

my trip to doha was an eye opener to say the least. maybe i can call it a mini revelation (in more ways than one). apart from experiencing the asian games (which, btw, was a lot of fun!), i got a taste of how life in doha would be like as a m'sian expat (thanks to zali and his.. err..friend [tak boleh mention nama ek? plu blogger in the closet i think..hehehe]). and i can say that it's not so bad at all..

somehow, my trip to doha has made me hate dubai more. maybe because it made me realise that my life doesn't have to suck so bad just because i'm working in the middle east. and there is another place (which btw, is merely a 50-minute-flight away) that can give me the opportunity to earn more and to gain the experience (to enrich my so-called career) without having to put up with so much crap that comes with this place. there is another place where:

- you can access all the sites that you want on the internet
- you can use skype (and other VOIP service providers)
- you don't have to spend insanely long hours in the car just to get to work (currently, i'm spending about 2 and a half hours in the car every morning just to reach my client's office which is about 15 kilometres away from where i'm staying. that is how bad the traffic is here)
- you have a fellow friend of your own kind who you can oogle cute guys with and just be yourself (instead of pretending not to look at handsome creatures at the mall AND having to pretend to look interested when you see pretty girls.. because it is expected of you)

i know that first impression can be misleading. and things always look better on the other side. but i think i can trust my judgement on this. and that is why, i'm seriously considering gwtting an employment there.

before i went to doha, my mind was set about going back to malaysia next year once i got my bonus. actually, before i came here, i promised myself that i would at least give it a year here. and i'm living up to my promise (it's almost my eleventh month here). but i thought that i might as well wait a few more months for the bonus before i bid farewell. but the situation in the office has become more and more unbearable. two of my colleagues have found another job and are leaving next month (which, btw proves that i'm not the only one who has issues with the boss' way of managing things). and the ones who are leaving are the ones who i am closest with (and the more competent ones, in my opinion). i have a feeling that after next month, the situation in the office will be much worse than it is now. and i just don't know whether it's worth to go through the suffering just for the money? i know that we need to challenge ourselves to become better individuals, but i just don't know where the limit is. so far, i've been using other people's judgement on what the limit is because seriously, if it was up to me, the limit will be very very low (i'm very lazy).

now, i am back into the job-hunting mode. updating my resume.. applying for jobs online..i don't really like it actually. i think i've beend doing it way too frequently, specially for someone with only four years of working experience. there's just too many variables involved now. too many potential opportunities. but unfortunately, nothing is confirmed yet. i am not known to be a very patient man (although it's amazing how i managed to refrain myself from committing some 'acts' so far - as much as possible that is). so all this waiting and uncertainties are slowly killing me.

i hope that things will turn out ok... wish me luck guys!!!

p.s: someone actually wanted to boycott my blog for not writing sooner.. (peminat fanatik ke? ahaks..). anyway, here it is. but i think that the person will find this entry disappointing. i'm sorry ..but there are things that i'd rather not say here (i've learned my lesson). if there's anything that you need to know - just ask. i don't bite (and i think you know that).